H3Y B3AUTiiFUlS

wow.. its been forever. well... lets see what all has been going on..

ohk well first off.. me and nikki got into this HUGE argument.. over stupid crap that people were saying that wasnt true. people need to learn to keep their mouths shut and not start crap. i mean seriously how old are we?.. yeah not in 2nd grade anymore. and what benifits did yaul get out of it? nothing. so me and her are cool now i think. and lets see... right before spring break everything and everyone was starting to get to me. so i broke down.. not very often that i break down at school. but i guess sometimes i just let stuff build up until i blow up. i know its not very healthy but im not that big on letting everyone know my true feelings about things. soo--> spring break '06 = me in the hospital. we thought it was food poisoning..turns out it wasnt because it relapsed and i was back in the hospital the next week... so i had to miss school. i then came back the next week. and idk it seemed like alot of things had changed with me and a few of my friends. like i didnt belong or something.  i dont know how to exactly explain it. and it still feels sort of awkward between us. so basically.. friendships were broken.. friendships were made.. and some were repaired. but everything happens for a reason right?..
and so now me and kory are going back out. and everyone seems dissapointed in me for this. im sorry.. but things are different now. idc what u think. i mean i know everyone tells me "if u get hurt again dont come cryin to me" ok well thats fine.. i mean i can do this on my own. i honestly think he has changed. for the first time in  a while i feel happy. its going good. and he says it will stay that way and i trust and believe him.. so if im a dissapointment to u.. im sorry. i guess ill just be a dissapointment.

i think thats basically it..

i love u kory

wow i havent updated in like a million years..

yeah so myspace has taken over <3----->¢¾

but i'll try to update this as much as possible... so lets see how things have been going with me lately, you ask?.. uhm alright better than they were. im starting to get everything straightened out including myself. friends are excellent right now. i think i have pretty much gotten rid of all the backstabbing and two faced bitchs.. so its all good. ((excuse my french))... as for the boy situation= im single.. at the moment uhm i think theres one guy i like, but highly doubt it will work out cus it never does. kory and me= idk, one minute we're friends the next we hate eachother (( of course i say that but i could never really hate him )) im hoping everything works out though. but its up to him if he doesnt want to be firends then whatever.  wow i cant believe its march already. thats crazy. schoool will be ending soon... and we will be on to SUMMER!! wooo hoo! cant wait for that. last summer was a blast so im hoping this summer will be just as fun.. with all the parties, hanging out with lauren, going to sports com all the time with lauren, tj, brian, and aj... uhh.. great times. i might get to go to jamaica this summer.. so everyone cross your fingers! (( im not getting my hopes up though))..

ohk well you BETTER leave me comments.. or im quitting this thing.. cus myspace is
soo---> much better.

speaking of which= www.myspace.com/xxbeautifulxmessxx09  iffu have myspace.. add me!

much love¢¾

                       So......Kory broke up with me.......

    ok well there it is its really over... for good i think. we broke up over the stupidest thing.... it really sucks and all cus i think i did love him but he doesnt want me back and last night i was willing to do anything to get him back... i cried for three hours straight.. and all that bs. but he didnt care. not at all. he didnt care that he hurt me, he didnt care i was cryin he didnt even care about us anymore. i honestly dont see how someone cant just sit there and be so heartless.. be he did. so also after crying all day at school over the whole issue.. i think that no matter how much i love him and care for him.. we WONT go back out. im just not going to go through this anymore. im startin to realize that i dont deserve to be treated like this. dont get me wrong like i said before i do care for him a whole lot.. and this hurts so bad.. but im going to deal with it... i didnt have any drama this year until i started goin out with him, i didnt cry everynight until i  started goin out with him.. and another thing i had never fought with muh boyfriend the way i did with him. yes everyone warned me but until they/yaul are me you wont understand.. it wasnt as simple as " go find someone else, hes not worth it.. he doesnt matter" cus he did matter to me and still does. i dont think he knows that.. i wish he did though. it was my fault we broke up... i was still holding a grudge against him and being mean to him and all.. but i mean he PROMISED he would change and he didnt... so what was i suppose to do everytime he mad me mad... just say " ohh well thats ok, ill forget about it" he said i should but i cant do that. so i guess me and him are on the same page now as far as not getting back together goes. today was really hard for me thought, having to go to school (( thank godd it was a half day )) .... i couldnt even look at him. i would start crying... but from now on im going to try my best and ill just look at him and smile... i dont know if we're even going to be friends after this.. but we'll see. i hope he knew what he was doing.. cus that was his final chance..... i didnt say that last night... but ive decided thats the way its going to be now. so hope it was worth it kory. go out with whoever you want... i dont care. im done... this time i mean it. so......there yaul go.. (( very long entry but i had to say that and vent a little )).....

so im single now.................  gimme me a call if you wanna hangout sometime....

H3Y B3AUTIFULS,

well just thought i would make a quick update......so me -n- kory are going back out. idk how its all gonna go but we'll see wont we. uhm... yesterday was basketball tournaments (( the freshman boys )) we won!! ha hell yeah. me -n- amber just hungout upstairs in the weight room with robbie, shane, amanda, tj, denton, and lauren russle.... it was fun lol.. uhm tonight we played warren county.. girls and boys won.. so that was cool. well thats really all thats happened.. so yeah lol

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much love,

Laura

H3Y B3AUTIFULS,

sorry its been so long since i last updated. Me and Kory are on better terms now.. so yaul please dont give him a hard time about stuff, just leave him alone.im still not all that happy but im doing ok i guess........ mann xanga is gettin old. MYSPACE is in----> www.myspace.com/XxBeautifulxMessxX09  if you have mysace leave me comments!!

lets see............

Saturday- uhm slept till like 3:00 lol... uhm went to the movies and saw "When a Stranger Calls" it was really good actually. but that was fun...

Sunday- church......... then SUPERBOWL!!!!!! ohh and guess who won?? PITTSBURGH!! hell yeah baby!!

Monday- hmm.. school....... i think thats it

Tuesday- school then basketball game against Riverdale.. Girls lost (( whats new )) and guys won...but the girls did good they didnt lose by much. yeah me and kory talked about alot of stuff... well not really lol.. we talked a little. but i think we are better now.. atleast a little anyways.

Today- hmm woke up not feeling to well. went to school.......... basically it. but hey guess what?? its SNOWING!! and its sticking. YaY! i hope we dont have school tommarow. i guess we'll see.

i love yaul.....(( someone in particular ))